Loser

I think it is interesting that some people either cannot have an honest view of themselves, or other people are not willing to be honest about their opinions of other people. I've often wondered if people really think that I am a good person or if they are trying to spare my feelings. I suppose that in trying to spare my feelings their motives are quite clear-i.e. they like me enough to spare my feelings. But I would prefer that people be honest with me.
My own view of myself is poor, I'll admit. Like the title of this entry, I do find myself to be a loser. I do not know very many good defining qualities that can be honestly attributed to my person. So lets see, what is a loser? The World English Dictionary states that a "loser" is

1.	a person or thing that loses
2.	a person or thing that seems destined to be taken advantage of, fail, etc: a born loser

Okay, I'll go with that. I lose. A lot. It sucks. I am not a good winner, and I don't know how to lose gracefully all of the time. After a while, losing all the time gets to a person. Its understandable to be frustrated. And in some cases, No, its not right to accuse your husband of cheating because you are losing EVERY GAME of cribbage.
Moving on...
The Slang Dictionary (which is fast becoming the most used in language today because most people, myself included, don't know how to speak proper, educated ENGLISH) gives this definition for "loser":

1. n.
   an inept person; an undesirable or annoying person; a social failure. : Those guys are all losers. They'll never amount to anything.

Even better. This is how I feel on an almost constant basis when I am out of my element. Even when it is with my husband. Sometimes more so then because he is so much more intelligent than I am and is aware of it. Accomplished people exude an awareness of who they are and their high self-worth. There is nothing wrong with knowing that you are a valuable asset to society. I would love that, but I am not there yet, nor do I feel like I will get to that point any time soon, and so I often feel as if my husband is settling.

I don't know for sure, but I don't think that is healthy.